Sometimes I'm super lonely...
In elementary, Junior High and High School, I always had a group of friends, people I could call and talk to and especially people I could be around and socialize with. But it's my 3rd year in Logan and I still don't have a group of friends. Is this normal? I feel like I'm very friendly and put myself out there but its like all these groups of friends are already formed and its so so so hard to join a group of friends. For example: It would be odd to add some random girl to our girls club... We girls have been friends forever... See what I mean. I don't really know how to change this and get myself into other peoples friendship "clubs". I've thought, maybe I just need to call the people in that group and see if they are doing anything but I don't want to become annoying.
I thought I would enjoy having my own room at school, turns out it provides more alone time in which I can cry and feel lonely... ha ha when I have a roommate, I buck up, laugh it off, have someone to vent to and hardly ever cry because I don't want to cry in front of anyone. This has become very frustrating to me.
I'm 20 years old and don't even know how to find solid friends. Yikes... I miss you girls. I'm feeling a little lost in life right now, its a weird time for me, trying to decide if I should serve a mission, or just stay in school or take time off so I can work so I can actually afford school and since I manage and live with 20ish girls, I only see girls all stinkin day long, I want some men! Suggestions? Ideas? Comfort? Anything...
In elementary, Junior High and High School, I always had a group of friends, people I could call and talk to and especially people I could be around and socialize with. But it's my 3rd year in Logan and I still don't have a group of friends. Is this normal? I feel like I'm very friendly and put myself out there but its like all these groups of friends are already formed and its so so so hard to join a group of friends. For example: It would be odd to add some random girl to our girls club... We girls have been friends forever... See what I mean. I don't really know how to change this and get myself into other peoples friendship "clubs". I've thought, maybe I just need to call the people in that group and see if they are doing anything but I don't want to become annoying.
I thought I would enjoy having my own room at school, turns out it provides more alone time in which I can cry and feel lonely... ha ha when I have a roommate, I buck up, laugh it off, have someone to vent to and hardly ever cry because I don't want to cry in front of anyone. This has become very frustrating to me.
I'm 20 years old and don't even know how to find solid friends. Yikes... I miss you girls. I'm feeling a little lost in life right now, its a weird time for me, trying to decide if I should serve a mission, or just stay in school or take time off so I can work so I can actually afford school and since I manage and live with 20ish girls, I only see girls all stinkin day long, I want some men! Suggestions? Ideas? Comfort? Anything...
Oh Cam Bam. I've been there girl and trust me it gets better. I struggled a lot at the beginning of college to make friends and find somewhere that I "fit". I spent a lot of time in my room feeling sorry for myself when all of my roommates were out doing fun things. My roommates were also friends from the year before and I felt like I didn't belong cause I hadn't been friends with them as long. But I still tried to be friends with them and guess what? They are some of my best friends down here at school. I put myself out there and stopped feeling like I was being annoying when I asked people what their plans were. Nobody is really annoyed when anyone does that. Do you feel annoyed when someone asks you? I feel flattered that they actually care! In college, people don't have exclusive "clubs" that no one can join. And if they do, you don't want to join them cause obviously they are lame. I've decided that college is a time to meet as many people as possible. I don't have a "group" that I only do stuff with every weekend. Having one group can be super boring and can get old. Don't feel like you have to have one set of friends. Branch out! Our "Girl's Club" is different because we HAVE been friends forever that we have a history and that's what makes us friends. Yeah living with girls if rough but sometimes that's a place to start to make you feel more comfortable. I promise it will get better! Just pray for strength and things will happen. All it takes is 20 seconds of courage and something insanely great will happen! Call me if you ever need to talk! I have a lot more to say about this!
ReplyDeleteThank you Becca, I like your little 20 seconds of courage from we bought a zoo :) I love you and your post made me feel much better!!
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