Dear Girls Club,
I need some serious motivation. I don't know how I'm ever going to graduate this thing called college. Really though, I just talked to my adviser and it looks like I wont graduate until 2016... That's IF everything goes well and I pass all my classes especially math... I'm no good at this whole going to school stuff... As much as I love Logan I just want to be with my family sometimes. I'm surrounded by people I love but feel so lonely. Why do we have to spend bank to gain an education. Why can't they have classes and then you go to the ones you are interested in... If I could choose what I wanted to do, I would actually work harder and care more. I'm just living in this place feeling like I have no direction whatsoever... I need a math tutor... I wish I could just take art class and play with little kids all day. Life is confusing. Also why does everyone and their dog have a boyfriend, its sickening... but mostly its cute and i'm jealous. I was at wal mart just now and every corner I turned there was a cute little couple buying things together. I'm fun, I'm cute, I'm nice... there has gotta be one man who likes me! I'm with Becca, it really is amazing that people are in love. How am I suppose to find a husband... this is seeming hopeless. Wa wa.... okay I'm done winning about my life...
On a happy note, I've got some of the best friends a girl could ask for! I really miss you all and want to be with you girls! Love you!
Love Camille
Cam Bam,
ReplyDeleteI know college can be rough. Hang in there; things will get better! Don't worry about how long it takes you to graduate. Just concentrate on each semester as they come and before you know it, you'll be done! Being away from family can be hard and life can suck but that's one way that you can grow and become stronger and better. Don't worry about dating or anything. Worrying about it just makes it worse. Just concentrate on having the time of your life, meeting new people and making tons of friends. This is the time to live up life because you'll never be in the part of life again. I know that's super hard and I'm not perfect at it but seriously don't worry about it cause worrying won't get you anywhere and will just make it worse! As long as you're doing what you're supposed to be doing, the Lord will direct you to be where you're supposed to be, doing what you're supposed to be doing. If you're struggling in you classes, talk to your professor or a TA or look into getting a tutor. It can only help! Hang in there! Things will get better! And remember I'm here if you ever need to talk!
Sorry, didn't see this post until now. Trust me Cam Cam, if I hadn't fallen in love with chase, I would be in your same shoes. And sometimes wish I was. I have done things the opposite way. I found love, went to school, and am literally 4 classes away from being a medical assistant. BUT since I have to work full time, help provide for my little family chase and zeke and keep a roof over our heads I can't afford to finish my schooling.
ReplyDeleteIt's like when you were a preteen and were sooo excited to finally turn 16 to be able to drive or kiss boys. Well, once you get to that point in your life, you get used to it and its the norm and not so special. So do like becca says, take it one semester at a time. Learn to love to be in school, emerse yourself in it and learn all you can in this life. If you do this, your future hubby will find you. TRUELY, mind body and soul, forget about working so hard to be liked and getting a boyfriend and the universe will through him at you. :)
Boys like confident girls.
Maybe you do need to come home and be near family. You could switch to SLCC or Weber. Change the scene, find new friends, have new prospective guys in mind. Logan is a tiny town, I could never do it.
Rememeber you are brave, beautiful and a great person. I love you Cam Cam :)
STOP WORRYING and learn to enjoy the present.