Skinny girls

I see this girl (see picture below) and think she's really in shape and has a really nice stomach. Kinda reminds me if how skinny I used to be in high school but not near as toned. 

I used to be 115 pounds. I can hardly recall what it looked like, how I could fit in size 4 jeans (I think it was 4) or even what it felt like physically to be that skinny.

As I try to think I know I didn't work out and was always a petite child. I rembee in high school always being hungery and nothing sounding good. Plus I hardly had money nor for the good food. 

But as I look at this picture and try to remember being skinny me in high school and I think about my body today, I'm actually and finally content with my body as is now. 

Think about it, I eat well and healthy. My boyfriend thinks I look great (but could tone) and I feel good. Sure sometimes I look in the mirror and only see the flab and muffin top. But I am now seeing the almost 6 years since graduation and what this body had learned. 

I learned about steak, sushi, vegetables, and combining those to eat healthy. (I could eat even better if I had money) I've learned that the line between looking great, feeling great in your skin and eating great isn't a fine line, it's all in your optimistic mind and the wonderful partner that loves and supports you no matter what.

This years goal was to loose my fat and get back to 115 and I'm sure if I was really dedicated and worked out I could. But now I'm realizing I don't want to and don't need to. Sure I'll work out but not to get back to the high shool me because sure that girl looked great in the eyes of "Hollywood" or horny guys but I don't ever want to feel my stomach that small again. 

I seriously think I was malnourished back then. I ate a lot of candy, potatoes, ham, Wendy's, etc. 

Long story short, this girl is finally comfortable saying that she's comfortable in her own skin regardless of the flaws I can always pick out myself. :)