Jessie's Update

Hey Girlies. I love you all. I've been thinking a lot about childhood and how crucial it is to who we are now. I loved my childhood. Every second of it. Thanks to you guys. So. It's been forever since I've updated the internet world on my life. I have a blog, but haven't posted on it in a while. I don't really care to right now for some reason. But I want to post something on here. I think I'll follow Emi's lead and do a listy post.

 I don't know how to turn this dumb picture and don't want to reload it :) This is what it looks like in the morning, but I don't do it like this. Hah.

1. Some basics: I cut my hair short again. Really short. I love it. I think I probably won't ever grow it out again. I still look the same otherwise. 5'5" 140 lbs, brown hair, hazel eyes, 36B :) etc etc etc. I love my body. I love being a girl. Actually, I'm probably a C right now. Do your guys's boobs get bigger right before your period? Mine do lately. It's crazy.

This is how I do it, but it's hard to see. Sorry. I don't take many pics of myself. I'll work on it :) Ignore those other peeps. (The two girls are 2 of my old roommates, the one on the right is my best friend Leah.)

2. That's a good lead into something I'm obsessed with. Women's bodies. Menstruation, birth control, owning female sexuality, etc. I'm seriously in love with being a woman. I love my period (should be starting tomorrow or tuesday, with the new moon. I'm a crazy hippie when it comes to the moon and our periods) and love talking to other women about periods. It's crazy how many of us hate our bodies and hate what they do best.

3. I graduated in May. I'm not in school right now, but I plan on going back. Probably in 2 or 3 years. I feel no rush. I'm making plans for myself. There are many possibilities. I'm thinking of getting a masters/PhD in Psychology (I know I know, what does that have to do with architecture? whatever. I love architecture, but I want to work with people), maybe psychology and health, then maybe get another degree in nursing or something. I want to work directly with people, but it's not just about mental health (like a psychologist), it has so much to do with our physical health and emotional health. So I'd love to help women, but don't want to work exclusively with women. A lot of people are telling me I should be a midwife. I would love it I think. But we'll see :)

4. I am applying for a job that would move me to Seattle if I get it. It's the same job my brother John has here in Salt Lake, but the Seattle version of it. It's a "sale's job," technically, but that sounds way boring. I'll tell you more as time goes on. They have had the position open for a couple months and don't just hire anyone, so I don't know if I'll get it but John thinks I have a good chance. And I'd looove to move to Seattle. I am working on my resume and cover letter, but already have an interview with John's boss on Wednesday because John told her about me. So we'll see. It's a cool job, I'd be working with professors at Universities in and around Seattle. I think I'd love it. And i'd only do it for 2 or 3 years, save money, then go back to school. We'll see.

This isn't Seattle. This is San Fran. I took this pic :) I was there a couple weeks ago. A huge group of architecture students went for school so I went with them. hah. I love that city. It was my 4th or so time there. I'm blessed. 

5. YES we've gotta do lunch soon. Especially if I move. I can't leave without saying goodbye. I won't leave without saying goodbye. It sure has been fun seeing Emi and Camille a bit this year up in Logan. Love you guys. Now Becca, Crystal, Jo, let's get on this. My weekends are booked for another couple weeks (I'm doing a funny study where we take a pain pill, like weaker than a Tylenol, then they take our blood a hundred times over the course of two days. It's through this research center in Salt Lake, 25 other people are doing it with me. We come every weekend for 4 weeks, this is our second weekend, then by the end they've paid us $3300. Crazy huh?) so if we wanna meet up soon it'd have to be a not-weekend. Which is tough. We'll figure it out.

6. My jobs right now are just fun. I'm not saving money or anything, just kinda hanging out. I work at the wood and metal shop at the school of architecture at the U. It's the best job. I just build stuff and make sure students don't hurt themselves. I work just 20 hours a week there. Then I also work as a bike messenger. We only do legal stuff, so we run all the paperwork crap from law firms to courthouses all day long. It's so fun. I love riding my bike. It keeps me in shape. And I get to go in and out of cool buildings all day. I went in the church office building for the first time in my life a couple weeks ago. Funny.

This is a pic from the courthouse. I like taking pics while I work. 

7. I live by myself. I loooove living by myself. I lived with a few girls, my best girlfriends from college, for about a year, but they lived in the basement of an old man who smoked and I was sick of that. I live in the Avenues, for anyone who knows Salt Lake at all. Like, directly east of the temple. If I stood in front of my house and rolled a huge unstoppable bowling ball down the hill, it would hit the temple. That's where I live :) I've lived there for a few months, it's a one-bedroom little apartment. I love it. Here's a couple pics of the 'living room' space.

I love having a big window. I prop it open all the time. And it's on the ground level so I climb out of it a lot too. And friends knock on it when they get to my house. 

This is the most space efficient way I found to keep both my bikes inside. 

8. It looks like I have a boyfriend again. Since Davey I've now dated a couple boys. I didn't "date" anyone for a while, though I had a crush on every boy and kissed a few. Then I went to Italy and didn't think about boys much. Since I've been back I dated Sam for about 2 months, the boy from Logan. That was really fun and we liked each other a lot. But we weren't right for each other. We both knew it. We dated from beginning of October to end of November. Now I'm dating Tom. Tom Millar. If you're on facebook you can try to stalk him. I just flipped through his pics to see if I wanted to post any on here, but it made me all nervous. Hah. He's a cutie. I like him.

So I've known Tom for about a year and a half. He rides bikes like crazy like me. That's what has mostly brought us together. When I was dating Davey, Davey said, "If you had met Tom before he went on his mission, you two would be in love with each other." Then he got back from his mission and Davey introduced us, but I have never really been interested in him because he's suuuuuuper mormon. Not just like, Mormon, but really mormon. hah. Which is not really my style anymore, as you all know. I tell him "Man, if you had known me back in the day we'd be perfect for each other." We have a lot in common though, and get along really well. He's so mormon that he's been interested in me since we met, but didn't show it at all because he didn't want to make things complicated. But he's really in love with me. We're great for each other in a lot of ways. The only reason he's letting himself date me is because I don't him, "Okay Tom, I'll reinvestigate the church, I'll go to church and read and pray, but not for you. If I don't think it's right for me, I'm not going to fake it for the sake of us." But all he really heard was "I'll reinvestigate the church" and was sold :) So here I am, thinking about faith and religion all over again. But I don't think I'll ever go back to the church. It just doesn't work in my mind. I'm a really spiritual person, but I don't like religion. It's sad, because Tom really wants to be with me, and we'd be perfect for each other if our beliefs didn't differ so much. So. Who knows. I feel really peaceful when I'm with him, which means a lot to me, but I don't think it'll go anywhere, solely because he won't marry outside of the temple and I won't marry in. If I move to Seattle that'll end it for us. If I don't, we'll have to end it soon. For now we're both just happy pretending that it'll work itself out somehow; that I'll join the church or that he'll "lower his standards," if you will ;)

K fine. Here's a couple pictures.

This is a pretty recent picture, but it's hard to see his face really well. He's my age, he just turned 23. These are his sisters and his dad.  

This is him in high school or something. He still has the same pretty eyes and smile and cute nose, but plus like 5 years. 

9. Sorry, this is really long. So I'll stop. I could talk for ages, of course. I'm happy, girls. Really happy. I don't know where I'll be in two months, but I'm happy. It's been a great 2012 so far. I've been writing and drawing a lot. That makes me really happy. I still draw blind aaaaalll the time. As in I don't look at the paper as I draw, you know? So I'll leave you with this one, can you tell what it is? I did this blind, from memory. I love you girls. Thanks for making me who I am.