Dramas in the life of Becca

Well all I can say is people falling in love is amazing.  End of story.

So my life right now is quite interesting. So we started doing dinner groups with some people in my ward. Before the groups were formed, this boy that is new in the ward asked me on a date. Probably the most random date I've ever been on. We went and bought cereal and milk and went to a park and ate the cereal in big pots with wooden spoon. Way random but it was fun! Then we drove around a little bit and that was it. Well then the next week I could tell that he was trying to ask me out again but he just never did. I don't really know why he didn't but boys are confusing so who really knows. So then last weekend we were at a park with some of my friends and his apartment was there. He says to me, "When are we going on another date?" First of all, he asked me in front of everyone, AWKWARD. Second of all, don't ask me in a round about way!  Gah! I was bugged but whatever.  I still didn't know how I felt about him because I knew he was interested in me so I figured why not, give him a chance. So we went on another date this past Saturday. We walked to Jamba Juice and then went on a walk. I was super nervous because I knew I was giving him mixed signals so I figured he'd bring it up. Fortunately, he didn't.  His whole life he's wrestled, so he talked about that A LOT. LIKE THE WHOLE FREAKING TIME and I don't particularly like wrestling but whatever, it was fine. So we kept walking and started walking on campus and got to the massive staircase. There was no way we wanted to walk up that so we decided to sit on a hill of grass and talked. Well, we talked and threw grass at each other and it was fun. Well i leaned back on my arms and right when I did that, he did the same.  I knew it was coming. Well you know the drill, he held my hand. The problem is, I seriously felt nothing. No emotion whatsoever. No butterflies, no nerves, NOTHING. The weekend before, we were watching a movie and his roommate is super flirty and played with my hand and held it for seriously a second and I had butterflies up my throat! Well after we held hands for a little while on the grass, he lets go and I didn't know what was going on. Then he pulled me closer to him and again....i feel nothing. So we then left and walked home and I expected him to hold my hand but he didn't. I was confused but really didn't think of anything of it.
So church the next day, I was nervous because I didn't want things to be awkward but I surprisingly have gotten better at not being awkward. So I didn't see him until the 3rd hour and he was across the room and he just waved. I texted him before church to just say thanks again for the date and he didn't text back. I didn't think anything of it because we haven't been big texters yet anyway.
So then later that night at my ward prayer, I saw him all over another girl. I really wasn't that mad because this girl is a flirt with everyone so again, I thought nothing of it. At this point I'm thinking I'll just give him a chance and see where things go.  What do I have to lose right? So his roommate comes up to me and asks me what my feelings were about him. I said I wasn't going to talk about it to him.  Then his roommate says, "I was really mad that he asked you out again.  I told him not to because I didn't want him to lead you on."  WHAT.  I didn't know what to think.  Still don't.  It's been 3 days and he hasn't even talked to me at all.  LAME.  So for now, I'm done with him. And his roommate that talked to me is super cute and I have the biggest crush on him but I don't think there's anyway he'd ask me out, especially since I already went out with his roommate. It sucks.

That's my life.