Birthdays

As a kid birthdays were my most favorite especially mine because it meant my family would show love and kindness on that day and all towards me. :) (I'm an attention whore if you didn't know this already lol) But as I'm growing up my birthdays aren't seeming as important at all. I always try to hype myself up and get all excited but in the end, its just another birthday. Not that birthdays aren't great, but I think they are more important as a kid. Reasons being: 1) Your growing up and to more exciting things. 2) You have all your friends and family around. 3) You get sweet toys you get to play with all day long and do nothing more. 4) For me, I loved them most because my dad was always on his best behavior. As a grown up I don't think birthdays are going to be all that great. Reasons being: 1) growing older isn't that exciting now i've past the great 21. Turning 22 was only fun because I had TSwift's song to listen to and love. 3) All my friends are scattered in Utah/Europe so i won't be playing with them on my bday. 4) When your a grown up all you need is cash and don't really want/toys like you used to want. Thats boring. I think i'm finally coming down from my birthday cloud i'd have every year. Birthdays don't mean a whole lot anymore. Not like anyone is going to surprise me, chase is all about low expectations so that when surprises or anything really comes it will mean a lot and stuff. He's lame. That would be really cool to wake up to him making me breakfast or me getting a new car. To make my bday special this year I have scheduled nails in the morning and a two hr massage in the afternoon. And then chase says we will watch movies and make home made pizza. OH BOY, I get to stay home...like I usually am. At least he's willing to make pizza with me. I sound like such a downer. I'm sorry. Birthdays..I guess I can finally not give a bleep about them anymore. Butterflies are there but only because i make them be there. I feel like growing up you loose a little bit of the kid you were inside. It's sad and i miss that part of me. I always indulge myself in me nieces and nephews not only because i love them but because i envy them and want to be a kid again. Growing up i've always fantasize about being older and being able to drive, kiss, go to college, get married, have kids and be a kid with them. As i've been growing older, I've learned that dreaming is worthless unless you have money. Didn't have money to finish college, don't have money to get married or have kids. Money $ Money $ Money $ Money $ Money What a dog eat dog world and I hate it. I wish we could all be at Island View park playing and talking. I miss Emi Chan and being able to run down to her house. I miss sliding down the gobbles slide millions of times. I miss hanging out with Jessie in her awesome room(s) and watching TV with Becca in her house down stairs. I'm glad each of us loved each other and are such great friends. Like Emi said, the second generation of the Girls Club has begun with Crystal and Jessie. YAY!! I hope we are all in each other lives...forever. Miss and love you all! XOXO